Oh great, I can't put my pants on.
It started off well, today. Sandra, my running buddy came with me. I went the same route as last week, along the tracks. We had to climb up the bank to dodge the train just before the school, so I counted that as my first walking section. We blabbed about running stuff and I lost my breath easily. She came with me all the way to Wal-Mart, and then turned back at the 28th crossing.
The sun was out, birds were singing in the trees and it smelled nice as I went forward with my run. I came out at whatever road is after the woods and started towards the water. It looked really warm, blue, and choppy from up there. I was already bummed out I didn't bring Luke's ipod, the trees were quiet out of the woods. I located my pedometer, it had slid around to the front of my pants, where it doesn't click properly because I've got some tummy there that tips it flat. "Rollover" is the best word I can think of for the little chubby bit that comes over my fit pants. hahaha!
I went down to the waterfront and ran along whatever crescent it is there, it looked so blue out over the water in the sun...I couldn't get enough and wasn't ready for the woods just yet. Plus now my pedo was behind by a km, I wanted to add some distance onto my run.
Everything was cool up until my next walk break after the woods and boardwalk. There weren't any birds singing...it was creepy. When I came out of the woods and onto the waterfront I found out why not. A storm coming in was blowing really cold wind hard against my back, and nasty clouds were spilling over the mountain ridge to my left, cutting out the blue sky above.
At least the wind was at my back. I hadn't noticed it before in the tree shielded roadcuts I was on, now it was cold! I tried to speed up, and felt an ache in my knee. Checked the pedo...it said 4.18. Boo! I don't believe it! I really felt halfway. I hoped halfway.
I was cold now, and the wind wouldn't let off. I felt like I wasn't really running, just tripping on my fast walking feet, falling forward. I took another walk break at the airpark, up to the floatplane put in. Went to run more and it just ached all over my legs...I felt done, I felt like just walking the rest...but I was still cold, and I had a lawn to mow before the rain came. It just sucked.
I tried to distract myself, talking to myself, thinking about my trip coming up soon.
The rest was torturous, but I did it...more walk breaks than usual, less sleep last night, less food in my belly...my pedo said 10.46.
Got home, stretched, went to mow a clients lawn. It hurts in weird places! I lost all my garden muscles over the winter! Holding the whacker killed my hands and arms, lifting the clippings basket tripped my spasm...oh, yeah...this is what I didnt want. Time for heavy physio, massage, whatever it takes to soothe this. I'm going to work through this somehow. There has to be a way. Two years of physio and it hurts the same all over again? I can't put weight on my right leg, it disappears like it isn't there. I fell down putting on my left pantleg...that hasn't happened in awhile and it really bums me out.
I call shenanigans!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
4k-rock-steady
I nearly didn't go!
I thought, I took a week off, I can't keep on ditching, or I'll not reach my dreams!
So I put down the book I'm reading, put on my gear, and went, reluctantly into the drizzle.
Demo2rough-Luker-4:34
Aw, cute, Im starting off with Luke's new one...it's all right, at one point very Metallica-y. I got to the train station. Looking up into the sky, the moon was barely there behind the heavy grey clouds, pushing starshaped beams through the dark. Fir boughs above looked thick. The air felt dense and cold.
Ain't Wastin' Time No More-Allman Brothers Band-5:34
Cumberland Rd. to the roundy-loo, I don't like running on busier streets-being seen...but it is night time. More looking up at the night sky through more heavy looking boughs. Saw some stars and felt like it was my first time ever seeing the ocean, or my first crush saying hi back. Smelled smoke and felt autumn. Got a powerful longing to go into the woods for awhile.
Jerusalem-Neil Diamond-3:05
Haha, Neil! When he sings his heeyeahs, I sing along, even to this song..aw...Neil, this song made me smile all along Willemar as I searched the dark for 14th...it's farther from the roundy than I thought.
The Vibes Is Right-Barrington Levy-4:18
Yeah! I haven't heard this in awhile! Took me up to the store, realised just how slow I was "running" as I came up behind a slow walker.
Friday Night, Saturday Morning-The Specials-3:34
Went up Lake Trail, to the bottom of the hill, passed people in a car getting high and felt...weird. First like, haha, I busted you losers! Then just jealous. Whatever, fuck them. Sang along out loud and kept rockin along, thinking now about the race.
180 Degrees-NOFX-2:12
This song is just great. And I needed a little punkus right at this moment. It upped my pace and my pma, especially it being this one song. Back down Lake Trail to the corner of the schoolyard.
Flowers Are Pretty-Vandals-3:17
I was beginning to zone out, I was tryng to force my thoughts to what it is I need to do/how to direct the next three weeks to make it work out for me.
Surrender-Cheap Trick-4:25
This was a live version and I didnt recognize it/wasn't listening when it came on. Of course my searching for answers to the unknown in the forefront of my mind wasn't working, so it was nice to have another sing out.
In The Time of My Ruin- Frank Black-4:21
Aw, FB. My heart. I knew my run was nearly done, I checked my pedometer, it said 3.85, I was at McPhee. I went down to Harmston, just enjoying the buttery sounds.
He reminds me of Langley, too. I walked back up my street, holding my toque on as I craned my head back to look up at the moon and the sky cleared of the clouds now. Crystal clear and bright. Makes me feel good to see it, to feel the moonlight fill me up with whatever it is that it gives me...something primal. Took off my jacket to cool off in the cold air as I walked. How do I reconcile this urge to get further out when I'm this close to a long overdue trip into town?
Too much thinking...and not enough solutions...guess I'll have to be patient.
Good run, at least my brain is working!
I thought, I took a week off, I can't keep on ditching, or I'll not reach my dreams!
So I put down the book I'm reading, put on my gear, and went, reluctantly into the drizzle.
Demo2rough-Luker-4:34
Aw, cute, Im starting off with Luke's new one...it's all right, at one point very Metallica-y. I got to the train station. Looking up into the sky, the moon was barely there behind the heavy grey clouds, pushing starshaped beams through the dark. Fir boughs above looked thick. The air felt dense and cold.
Ain't Wastin' Time No More-Allman Brothers Band-5:34
Cumberland Rd. to the roundy-loo, I don't like running on busier streets-being seen...but it is night time. More looking up at the night sky through more heavy looking boughs. Saw some stars and felt like it was my first time ever seeing the ocean, or my first crush saying hi back. Smelled smoke and felt autumn. Got a powerful longing to go into the woods for awhile.
Jerusalem-Neil Diamond-3:05
Haha, Neil! When he sings his heeyeahs, I sing along, even to this song..aw...Neil, this song made me smile all along Willemar as I searched the dark for 14th...it's farther from the roundy than I thought.
The Vibes Is Right-Barrington Levy-4:18
Yeah! I haven't heard this in awhile! Took me up to the store, realised just how slow I was "running" as I came up behind a slow walker.
Friday Night, Saturday Morning-The Specials-3:34
Went up Lake Trail, to the bottom of the hill, passed people in a car getting high and felt...weird. First like, haha, I busted you losers! Then just jealous. Whatever, fuck them. Sang along out loud and kept rockin along, thinking now about the race.
180 Degrees-NOFX-2:12
This song is just great. And I needed a little punkus right at this moment. It upped my pace and my pma, especially it being this one song. Back down Lake Trail to the corner of the schoolyard.
Flowers Are Pretty-Vandals-3:17
I was beginning to zone out, I was tryng to force my thoughts to what it is I need to do/how to direct the next three weeks to make it work out for me.
Surrender-Cheap Trick-4:25
This was a live version and I didnt recognize it/wasn't listening when it came on. Of course my searching for answers to the unknown in the forefront of my mind wasn't working, so it was nice to have another sing out.
In The Time of My Ruin- Frank Black-4:21
Aw, FB. My heart. I knew my run was nearly done, I checked my pedometer, it said 3.85, I was at McPhee. I went down to Harmston, just enjoying the buttery sounds.
He reminds me of Langley, too. I walked back up my street, holding my toque on as I craned my head back to look up at the moon and the sky cleared of the clouds now. Crystal clear and bright. Makes me feel good to see it, to feel the moonlight fill me up with whatever it is that it gives me...something primal. Took off my jacket to cool off in the cold air as I walked. How do I reconcile this urge to get further out when I'm this close to a long overdue trip into town?
Too much thinking...and not enough solutions...guess I'll have to be patient.
Good run, at least my brain is working!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
curious run
I am glad I went. I realised tonight its been since last thursday. All my aches and overwork...and excuses.
It was drizzly and dark. I started at 6th and McPhee - the end of my street, and followed McPhee til it dead ends at the three way. I can feel how much faster the pace I can keep now is. Went up to Tull and along there until...what is it, 27th? Down 27th to Fitz., keeping up the pace, until 17th, where I just had to slow down for the sake of my hurty hip. But I didn't stop running until Cumberland Rd., then walked back home. For most of the way I was truckin'. It felt good. My butt muscles are sore now !haha!, and my heels, but whats new.
But I have no idea how far that is, and I'm tempted to drive it to find out, since it felt faar like Jamie!
Onward and upward with the feeling good vibes. Got some planning to do tomorrow, as I might not return to work next week, and start my rest stop early.
It was drizzly and dark. I started at 6th and McPhee - the end of my street, and followed McPhee til it dead ends at the three way. I can feel how much faster the pace I can keep now is. Went up to Tull and along there until...what is it, 27th? Down 27th to Fitz., keeping up the pace, until 17th, where I just had to slow down for the sake of my hurty hip. But I didn't stop running until Cumberland Rd., then walked back home. For most of the way I was truckin'. It felt good. My butt muscles are sore now !haha!, and my heels, but whats new.
But I have no idea how far that is, and I'm tempted to drive it to find out, since it felt faar like Jamie!
Onward and upward with the feeling good vibes. Got some planning to do tomorrow, as I might not return to work next week, and start my rest stop early.
Monday, February 22, 2010
here and now
All winter I have arranged my life around making money. To my mental, spiritual, emotional and physical detriment. Starting this week, that will end.
I begin again, as new as springtime.
And although I cannot yet arrange my life around my dreams, I have the opportunity every day to organize my activities around living. Around feeling alive.
I may not earn what I need to pay all of my bills in their entirety every month.
But I will be free to move my body the way it wants to move, at a pace it enjoys, a pace I set. Free to rest when I need it, and take deep breaths of fragrant garden air when I am frustrated with my workday. Free to decide what work Id like to take, and what I would turn down. I will be free to arrange my day with the spaces I need to meditate, to write, to study, to just sit, to do my runs, my physio, to go down to the water and watch it come and go, to get in and swim. Free to take on projects that force me to grow.
I will be free to dream my ambitious dreams, and take steps toward them every day.
In my way. On my time.
And so what if I get caught up in the work and do too much again?
hahaha!
Doesnt everybody when it comes to their own business?
I begin again, as new as springtime.
And although I cannot yet arrange my life around my dreams, I have the opportunity every day to organize my activities around living. Around feeling alive.
I may not earn what I need to pay all of my bills in their entirety every month.
But I will be free to move my body the way it wants to move, at a pace it enjoys, a pace I set. Free to rest when I need it, and take deep breaths of fragrant garden air when I am frustrated with my workday. Free to decide what work Id like to take, and what I would turn down. I will be free to arrange my day with the spaces I need to meditate, to write, to study, to just sit, to do my runs, my physio, to go down to the water and watch it come and go, to get in and swim. Free to take on projects that force me to grow.
I will be free to dream my ambitious dreams, and take steps toward them every day.
In my way. On my time.
And so what if I get caught up in the work and do too much again?
hahaha!
Doesnt everybody when it comes to their own business?
toomuchwork
and not enough play...
This past weekend, and my poor achy body, got crushed by working too much.
I got to dogsit from Thursday til yesterday, and it was nice to bring a buddy with me everywhere I went. But I was sleeping in an unfamiliar place, with this twitchy, kicky, farty little lady who sleeps in fits of one hour segments and made sure to wake me up when she moved herself to her next favorite spot under the covers with me. So I got very little sleep this weekend, between 12am and 5am, when I wasn't working!
I did go to the gym on Friday, in spite of working 16 hours. Then 13 hours Saturday, so yesterday after my 8, I just crashed into bed and slept and it was good. Feels like someone tore off my feet and Im running around working on painful stumps. My lower back is doing funny crunchy, clicky shifts and hurting all the time. I have a lizard skin rash on my chest. Im thinking my body is fighting with me.
I am taking today off of running. Making a doctors appointment for my day off on Weds. I feel overwhelmed with all that is happening so fast. Spring is wonderful, but it brings changes to my life that every year feel like jumping off a cliff into unknown, unreliable chaos. I never trust that I'll get by, but I always have. Time to take the leap.
OK, more coffee, then crappy hurting work!
This past weekend, and my poor achy body, got crushed by working too much.
I got to dogsit from Thursday til yesterday, and it was nice to bring a buddy with me everywhere I went. But I was sleeping in an unfamiliar place, with this twitchy, kicky, farty little lady who sleeps in fits of one hour segments and made sure to wake me up when she moved herself to her next favorite spot under the covers with me. So I got very little sleep this weekend, between 12am and 5am, when I wasn't working!
I did go to the gym on Friday, in spite of working 16 hours. Then 13 hours Saturday, so yesterday after my 8, I just crashed into bed and slept and it was good. Feels like someone tore off my feet and Im running around working on painful stumps. My lower back is doing funny crunchy, clicky shifts and hurting all the time. I have a lizard skin rash on my chest. Im thinking my body is fighting with me.
I am taking today off of running. Making a doctors appointment for my day off on Weds. I feel overwhelmed with all that is happening so fast. Spring is wonderful, but it brings changes to my life that every year feel like jumping off a cliff into unknown, unreliable chaos. I never trust that I'll get by, but I always have. Time to take the leap.
OK, more coffee, then crappy hurting work!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
yeah longest run ever!
So I borrowed Luke's ipod and took the same route as last week, with some rad improvisations. Started onto the tracks at fifth to
Sueno Con Una Gitana - Adalberto Alvarez Y Su Son 6:42
This song, these guys are awesome! I was happy dancing and feeling Cuban all the way to 17th on this song. Then I got a good laugh and had fun until almost Wal-Mart/28th to
Walk This Way- Aerosmith & Run DMC 6:00
Afro Cuban All Stars- Habana Del Este 6:41
Got to the park and the river and the air smelled good like forest and fresh things, so I decided to deek off of the tracks and into the woods instead of following the roads. I followed a winding path crisscrossed by roots, up and down big and little gullies, ducked under a fallen tree, then traversed a shallow gully on a huge fallen log that has been sheared flat, and looked slippery. Back and forth, the path wound through Millard park, and I could see the mall most of the time to my left. I came out at the highway at the traffic light where the mall ends, and followed the highway back to the other side of Millard, by where my giant boardwalk starts. It was fun, and pretty, and challenging. I like trail running!
Right before I left the tracks, Agnostic Front started. Listened to the Another Voice album through Still Here 2:25, All Is Not Forgotten 1:54, Fall of the Parasite 1:16, Pride, Faith, Respect 1:54, So Pure to Me 2:01, and Dedication 2:46
Then I realized that I hadn't put it on shuffle, and by the start of the waterfront path at Millard Rd, reset it.
We Are the Problem US Bombs 2:36
There was a guy running in front of me that I thought I'd keep pace with, but he disappeared after the shady path part.
1shot 2 shot Eminem 4:26
Huh? I thought. Eminem? Really? Where did this come from. Luke hates hip hop. That was weird. Came off of the gravel path to this song. I took off my Cramps sleeved tee and tied it around my waist. I'm running in the sun in a tank top! Yeah spring sunshine!
People weren't really answering my hello's today. The tide was far out and people were walking out on the sand. All three of them were wearing really bright white shoes and I thought. Bad idea! haha!
Rat Race Bob Marley 3:41
...And Justice for All Metallica 9:45
Saw a girl I knew, with her dog and kid. She stopped what she was doing to make a gas face at me, which gave me a laugh. This whole stretch above got me through the airpark, around the point and to the floatplane ramp.
Constellations Jack Johnson 3:21
I sang along to this one, it's pretty, and got almost to the 17th street bridge where I walked for a minute. I had taken three previous walk breaks.
Guns of Navarone Skatalites 2:29
Axel F Herbie Hancock 5:28
I was so excited when this came on! I was at the demolished mill and this song made me smile.
A Residual Haunting Byzantine 4:11
Home Hardware stretch...checked my pedometer which let me down, as it was measuring in steps, which is meaningless to me, I switched it to distance, and it was in miles! Pooh!
Confucius Skatalites 2:56
I walked to the start of the First Street hill, and started my run up it. This is my Prospect Point, I told myself, and prepared to fail at it.
South Australia The Pogues3:28
Instead, I kept on, all the way to Harmston, rocking it at a good pace, yeah!
Romeo Planet Smashers2:31
Dane Cook Punkass
Stopped running here. Pretty sure it was further than 10k. My pedometer said 6.3miles.
Bob Marley Stir it Up
Cooled down and enjoyed the sun. Thought about how rad it is that nothing hurt today!
I think the sun helps. Now I am so salty! It is shower time. I have been stretching for ages now, while writing this. Today felt great.
Now I get to go dogsit, yeah!
With pot pie that I made last night!
Check out my how to make pot pies if you want:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZBy8Mn3SYOs
Its pretty retarded, but it was fun to do!
Post script:
My knees started aching by the time I reached the 17th Street bridge on the way home. It went away, though it didn't feel like I would make it for a minute there.
Also, very helpful things that Paula passed on from her running club coach about hills that I thought about near the end were: look at the top of the hill, not down; balls! of the feet, kick back like road runner; and-most of all- act like Im pushing a door open with my chest, this somehow, seemed to take weight/pressure/something, off of my legs. Awesome!
Sueno Con Una Gitana - Adalberto Alvarez Y Su Son 6:42
This song, these guys are awesome! I was happy dancing and feeling Cuban all the way to 17th on this song. Then I got a good laugh and had fun until almost Wal-Mart/28th to
Walk This Way- Aerosmith & Run DMC 6:00
Afro Cuban All Stars- Habana Del Este 6:41
Got to the park and the river and the air smelled good like forest and fresh things, so I decided to deek off of the tracks and into the woods instead of following the roads. I followed a winding path crisscrossed by roots, up and down big and little gullies, ducked under a fallen tree, then traversed a shallow gully on a huge fallen log that has been sheared flat, and looked slippery. Back and forth, the path wound through Millard park, and I could see the mall most of the time to my left. I came out at the highway at the traffic light where the mall ends, and followed the highway back to the other side of Millard, by where my giant boardwalk starts. It was fun, and pretty, and challenging. I like trail running!
Right before I left the tracks, Agnostic Front started. Listened to the Another Voice album through Still Here 2:25, All Is Not Forgotten 1:54, Fall of the Parasite 1:16, Pride, Faith, Respect 1:54, So Pure to Me 2:01, and Dedication 2:46
Then I realized that I hadn't put it on shuffle, and by the start of the waterfront path at Millard Rd, reset it.
We Are the Problem US Bombs 2:36
There was a guy running in front of me that I thought I'd keep pace with, but he disappeared after the shady path part.
1shot 2 shot Eminem 4:26
Huh? I thought. Eminem? Really? Where did this come from. Luke hates hip hop. That was weird. Came off of the gravel path to this song. I took off my Cramps sleeved tee and tied it around my waist. I'm running in the sun in a tank top! Yeah spring sunshine!
People weren't really answering my hello's today. The tide was far out and people were walking out on the sand. All three of them were wearing really bright white shoes and I thought. Bad idea! haha!
Rat Race Bob Marley 3:41
...And Justice for All Metallica 9:45
Saw a girl I knew, with her dog and kid. She stopped what she was doing to make a gas face at me, which gave me a laugh. This whole stretch above got me through the airpark, around the point and to the floatplane ramp.
Constellations Jack Johnson 3:21
I sang along to this one, it's pretty, and got almost to the 17th street bridge where I walked for a minute. I had taken three previous walk breaks.
Guns of Navarone Skatalites 2:29
Axel F Herbie Hancock 5:28
I was so excited when this came on! I was at the demolished mill and this song made me smile.
A Residual Haunting Byzantine 4:11
Home Hardware stretch...checked my pedometer which let me down, as it was measuring in steps, which is meaningless to me, I switched it to distance, and it was in miles! Pooh!
Confucius Skatalites 2:56
I walked to the start of the First Street hill, and started my run up it. This is my Prospect Point, I told myself, and prepared to fail at it.
South Australia The Pogues3:28
Instead, I kept on, all the way to Harmston, rocking it at a good pace, yeah!
Romeo Planet Smashers2:31
Dane Cook Punkass
Stopped running here. Pretty sure it was further than 10k. My pedometer said 6.3miles.
Bob Marley Stir it Up
Cooled down and enjoyed the sun. Thought about how rad it is that nothing hurt today!
I think the sun helps. Now I am so salty! It is shower time. I have been stretching for ages now, while writing this. Today felt great.
Now I get to go dogsit, yeah!
With pot pie that I made last night!
Check out my how to make pot pies if you want:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZBy8Mn3SYOs
Its pretty retarded, but it was fun to do!
Post script:
My knees started aching by the time I reached the 17th Street bridge on the way home. It went away, though it didn't feel like I would make it for a minute there.
Also, very helpful things that Paula passed on from her running club coach about hills that I thought about near the end were: look at the top of the hill, not down; balls! of the feet, kick back like road runner; and-most of all- act like Im pushing a door open with my chest, this somehow, seemed to take weight/pressure/something, off of my legs. Awesome!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
slow5
It was so nice I couldnt wait to go run today. I had my coffee and got set to go.
Thought Id pay some bills and got totally sidetracked by the shock of a half paycheque...one more reason to hate that place.
Eventually went out for 5.1...meh. It got cold. The sky iced over on me for the duration of the run, but I got to go up and down my boardwalk...
Making a video of pot pie cooking directions. It's what I'll be eating this week.
Almost done. Nothing spectacular about the run. I miss my ipod.
Thought Id pay some bills and got totally sidetracked by the shock of a half paycheque...one more reason to hate that place.
Eventually went out for 5.1...meh. It got cold. The sky iced over on me for the duration of the run, but I got to go up and down my boardwalk...
Making a video of pot pie cooking directions. It's what I'll be eating this week.
Almost done. Nothing spectacular about the run. I miss my ipod.
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